The Perceptionist

It smells like a fire, a burning desire, dehydrating my soul constantly.

To Exist, or not to!

To Perceive, or not to!

Choices, they are an amalgamation of thoughts and experiences put to a test.

I Choose to Perceive and Exist, most of the times.

It Opens up the Soul next to me, and let’s me sip the Aura little by little.

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Thoughts linger in the cold emptiness of the jungle of memories,
This illumination is a discourse of a bag of emotions run by the myriad colors of the memories in focus,
Tears fall across the subliminal lines of a smile on the caricature of facial skin,
Mixed emotions, but no regrets!
Pure Nostalgia!

The rambling of a creative buffoon

I lose focus with the same discipline as of a wounded mother trying to save her child. Yes, I lose focus on a watch. I watch myself lose focus and my head starts to churn strange concoctions of already stored visual, sound and smell memories. The world seems to change its color and notions. Sometimes it is bright and sunny, sometimes dark and humid, each beautiful in its own way. The richness of life stands entirely on knowledge, peace, love and respect. All this in just a gaze into the scenery around me, be it wherever. A lost gaze absconding in the rebel against focus. I want to stay here forever, but as they say, you should not lose FOCUS for long, or it ruins you!

Dominantly Powerful

About two years back in history, I saw the live stand up of my favorite comic then – Louie CK, when he came to Detroit. I was furious that he was wearing a suit, which was contrary to his philosophy of life and stand-up image (I was and am not sure if those two co-exist or not). He was funny with his life anecdotes and tragic but humorous sexual miscarriages, and he did explain, to my satisfaction, as to why he was wearing as suit. But, this dissatisfaction and its removal was just the tip of the iceberg! He was and I think still is, ignoring the recent reveal which is very hard to ignore and relate to his stand up stories, one of the best comic writers and performers in Hollywood. His glory came with his earlier stand-up and the wild rant about masturbating. His T.V. show ‘Louie’ was my favorite among everything funny I have ever watched in life. He used many philosophical layers in his humor and I absolutely loved it, but only until last year before his comic dominance over my humor frequency fizzled out when the stories of his ‘masturbating in front of some women (The count is five until now)’ came out. Therefore, my theory that Power (which in his life was being the top comedy writer and performer, and MONEY, of course) corrupts everyone. He was one of the few humans whom I thought was disconnected with the use of his name and image, but turns out he was not!

Therefore, a lot of us have these dark urges, which we either ignore completely or keep in check. The reason that we can accept for keeping a check on these DOMINANT urges is to be a good human being. Nevertheless, as soon as even a small amount of any category of Power (Money, Image, Acceptance, Love etc.) is realized, humans, these days, tend to exploit it. They become dominant and assume that no one is ever going to tell on their torn and dark conscious. However, Karma is a bitch! But, how does a human being go from normal to weird to dominantly abusive?

My theory is that we keep flexing our conscious every now and then to achieve some goal, personal or professional. We justify it in our own head and never speak of it. This keeps happening until one day some of it is abhorrently exposed or confronted. We live in a very complicated world now and everyone wants to get rich instantly. This makes us very vulnerable to becoming dominant because the common misconception is that if you ask dominantly, a large percentage of human beings are assumed to not to fight back and just submit to your demand. I find it much more comforting when someone does something out of Love or Respect. It creates the kind of Peace that makes me sleep at night. Dominance in knowledge is very healthy in a moment of making a decision, but no one is ready to live with the fuzzy logic of ‘Using only when necessary.’ The brain is trained to work in routines and hence once the feeling of being dominant is born, it stays and sometimes finishes one’s career in a momentary glitch.

So, my question still stands, is there anyone who did not compromise his or her conscious to become Powerful and DOMINANT? If not, then we really live in ‘Kali-yug’ – the age of downfall, as mentioned in the Hindu mythology.

Randomly, to quote the band Pearl Jam’s song ‘I am mine’ –

“And the feeling, it gets left behind, all the innocence lost at one time, significant behind the eyes, there is no need to hide!”

Because it explains that if you have lost your innocence, then be yourself and tell the world who you are, so that they can treat you accordingly. Do not just hide away and torture people at the expense of their trust, love, and helplessness or simply respect!

Always remember, you are not DOMINANT, it is just that people are loving, kind, tolerant and sometimes helpless. Start sewing your conscious now! Or maybe it is too late!

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Evoke

The day is dry with faded insignia of a hot summer. Clouds are in the mood to pour, but holding on in fury. Crops are swinging in chaos. Wind is bleak and edgy. The scenery is a sad blues song. The heart skips a beat, but the mind refuses to accept defeat.  Rebellion is mostly verbose and frustrating. Society is always unhappy with my thoughts. What needs to change ? Should I step back into the fantastic weather prepared for me by the society? Or should I be EVOKE to enter the storm of acting on it!

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Please Yourself!

A lot of us may know the name “John Locke” from the famous TV series “Lost“. But that lot might not remember his character’s real name “Jeremy Bentham”. His character went through a lot of pain during his life before the plane crashed into the island where he found himself absolved of all pain and began to believe that “The Island” was his place to be, as he found a lot of pleasure in following its vague spiritual orders through “Jacob”, and otherwise.

In the real world too, a Jeremy Bentham existed a while ago. Was he in anyway connected to this reel character? Lets ponder!

Jeremy Bentham breathed through 1748 until 1832. He was the great British Economist and Philosopher who founded ‘Utilitarianism‘ and tried to quantify the ‘Pleasures and Pains’ in one’s life through his thorough but still tacit work called “Felicific Calculus“.

He laid out a very indulgently descriptive list of ‘Pleasures’ and ‘Pains’ in human lives.

The Pleasure of senses, skill, wealth, power, benevolence, amity, good name, imagination; to list a few. The Pains of enmity, association, expectation, ill name etc.

http://www.econlib.org/library/Bentham/bnthPML5.html

His idea was to minimize the pains and maximize the pleasures for the greater good of everyone according to a certain metric he invented. He tried quantification through parameters like the Intensity, certainty, propinquity, purity, duration and extent of Pleasure and Pain. But his doctrine had a flaw – the probability of all these parameters to differentiate for each individual was huge! The chances that 2 individuals will have the same intensity, purity, duration or any other effect of a pleasure or pain was zero, zilch, nada! and the number of differentiating factors and their intensity difference was uncountable! So his “Felicific Calculus” was not as thorough as he wanted it to be.

Hedonism, the philosophy of maximizing pleasure and minimizing pain was born from Utilitarianism. So Jeremy Bentham, in a way, pushed the lazy to the couch! But from his written pieces, one can observe that absolute pleasure was not part of his campaign! He was just trying to quantify life through pain and pleasures and the takeaway was ‘For the good of everyone!’

In the modern day technological advancement, a lot of human population is nowadays quantifying their life, but to a better cause of balancing the pains and pleasures. Everyone has these health gadgets these days to quantify sleep, exercise, diet, diseases and other health related parameters. One prime example would be FitBit. Financial gadgets, with the ease of regulations, have caused the rise of fiscal awareness among the common folks. Apps like Robin Hood, PayPalApple Pay, Samsung Pay etc. cater to a very eager audience of today who want to quantify (Read: Optimize) their routine (Read: Time and Money) to the level where they gather information and execute a good amount of financial investment and stabilization tasks with much less time spent. These are just 2 facets of life I have indulged in providing some examples of. There are many more facets (Read: Almost all)  where quantification, not possible earlier, has now changed the way the general human population gathers information and executes daily life tasks.

I think the words to remember are Balance and Over Indulgence. Both serve two different Devils/ Gods of two different worlds.

The real question is

‘Once Self Pleasing attitude starts driving you, How deep would you like to indulge?and in what direction specifically – For the greater good of everyone, a selected few or just yourself ?’

Massively But not Wholly Modular Minds

Some of us like to decide quickly with the minimal amount of numerically and philosophically most accurate choices. Whatever we decide needs to connect with the events of the present or past or both. Choices concerning the future need vague numerical prediction of the future (because accurate prediction is not available yet). Our mind has, over the years, trained itself at every step, nano or kilo, to form processes and modules of different behavioral, gestural, muscular, optical, nervous and other bodily dynamics. Each action has a module of dynamic components reacting in one in a millionth probable way to fulfill your thoughts of acting in a way you want. You train yourself to answer, gesture or physically behave in a certain way for certain situations. But some situations demand natural reactions. But even those natural reactions are a combination of the sub-conscious and genetic data which is hidden. So there is a chance that you never create an original gesture by un-intention!

Our minds have been generally thought to work in modules (module – each of a set of standardized parts or independent units that can be used to construct a more complex structure, such as an item of furniture or a building).

But there are 2 extreme thoughts on this. One extreme hypothesis believes that our mind is not wholly modular and the modularity lies towards the least side of the spectrum. Modularity is analogous with peripheral and output signals of the brain and non-modularity is related to the central cognition or conceptual section of the brain. So the first hypothesis calls our mind meagerly modular, kind of calling only a few of the peripheral signals modular. And our central cognition rules over most of the brain. This would mean that a few modules are created and our brain would not like to form habits of reacting in a certain way to certain situations, but rather act out of the gut most of the time. These brains would be very creative but not very productive!

The second hypothesis asserts that our brain is massively modular, if not wholly so! It likes to state that our central cognitive system is small and non-modular and almost every other system is modular. Now, this would mean that the brain signals work in modules and hence like to form modules for almost everything keeping the gut feeling away most of the times. I think these minds are the most practical and productive minds.

I think one trains its mind knowing or unknowingly throughout the life to either lean towards the natural frequency of it or away from it. The achievement would be the right balance. The right balance would make you a philosophical scientist. A person who knows exactly how to react every time, either through a module or the gut feeling! Balance is difficult to maintain, that is why change is the only constant!

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Picture Credit: http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20161004-were-developing-brains-outside-of-the-body

 

Filter

After the morning ablutions, I like to make tea. I start with a pan with the right kind of distorted lower lip shape at one of its top end for easy pouring. I satiate it with water and tea leaves and escalate their chemistry by raising their temperature. When the tea leaves have colored the water their way, I add some grated ginger and cardamom to elevate the essence of their existence. Finally, I pour fresh milk into this boiling hot orgy and a reddish hue is created. Then I turn the heat up again for the final climax. Once this lustful creation reaches the right kind of kinky red and boils, I use a strainer to filter the body and drink the soul of it. Slurrrrrp! Ahhhh!

We humans filter everything every moment of our life! We filter other human behavior, our own emotions, our actions, our expressions and every entity we come across. We are so professional at filtering stuff that we do it sub-consciously! Not even knowing that we actually have a filter running at large! The unknown mysteriously acting filter that works on its own with a little help from our sleeping, dreamy part of the brain. Filtering helps though! It helps to keep us in check! It helps us behave the way society would not cast us as serial killers or psychopaths! There are a lot of very rare species of humans who do not like to filter their emotions and are very blunt in their approach! They are the bunch who believe in honesty and integrity and absolutely hate routine liars. Routine liars are the liars who lie at a daily level as they filter the thoughts and decide it is even easy to just lie that they had great food when they even did not give a thought to what the food tasted like when they were gorging on it! They are just happy they filled their stomach! I do not want to digress from the obvious elephant in the room, our governments!

One apocalyptic example of what our leaders have hid from us for a reasonably long time –

  1. When the U.S government’s B52 bomber was carrying nuclear bombs on board and split in  half in the air and dropped the bombs over Goldsboro, North Carolina. These bombs were 250 times more fatal than the ones dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki each. This happened in 1961 and the document was uncovered by Schlosser as part of his research into his new book on the nuclear arms race, Command and Control. He found that at least 700 accidents and incidents involving 1,250 nuclear weapons were recorded between 1950 and 1968 alone. There was only one simple dynamo technology switch between these bombs detonating away.Read more at the link Goldsboro Incident.

We, as citizens, do feel that we need to know everything! and If this news had gotten out at that point, there might have been a ban on nuclear weapons for everyone. But it came out at a time when everyone has already banked on the years of technology advancement and developed highly sophisticated bombs.The news that really matters is always told a little too late! When its importance among the decision making bodies is not relevant anymore! So perceptively, filtering is a way to hide certain thoughts for a certain period of time or forever because it will help you progress with the sinister or angelic plan of yours!

So, Truth becomes irrelevant to time!

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Organized Chaos – Episode 4 – Fateful Hate

There was a knock on the door at 9 am. Fatty opened the door and greeted Taller

“Hey man, How are you? Come in!”

Taller looked at Fatty with his frown pushed down to the limit of making the eyes as thin as a knife’s edge “You doing alright?” Then he looked inside the house “I heard your wife left you?!” Taller took a few steps ahead to reveal Shorter right behind him.

“Oh, Hey shortie! You came along !” Fatty finished his sentence with a confusing tone fading suddenly.

“Yeah, I am the muscle! I go where Taller goes! and only Taller can call me shorty! You fat little piece of shit!”

“Calm down my friend. Come in and have a seat”

Taller had already stepped inside. ” I like how you have done nothing to the set up after your wife has left”

“What do you mean?” asked Fatty

“I mean you are being yourself, that is all a man gotta do!” Taller walked towards the couch, pressed the cushion once and then sat on it comfortably.

“You think I had a land mine waiting under the couch?” Fatty remarked jokingly

“No, I thought you had an AIDS syringe maybe!” Taller was stern

Shorter laughed, pressed the cushion too, and sat down.

“So what would you gentleman like to have?” Fatty asked with a courteous smile

“I will have a whiskey on the rocks, whichever you got! Again, do not give me a choice. I hate choices!”

“and you my friend?” Fatty re-oriented his head towards Shorter

“I will have the same”

Taller re-oriented his head towards Shorter too and he gave him a ‘stop peer pressuring yourself’ look. The kind where his eyes retracted into their sockets and the herds of skin around his cheeks and forehead gathered for a talk.

Shorter kept looking into the thin air and started to whistle a little. Taller looked away in the opposite direction after a millisecond.

Fatty returned with 3 glasses of whiskey and placed them neatly on the table.

“Do not forget to use the coasters. I have just cleaned the house.”

Taller picked up his glass, sipped the whiskey and placed the glass right where he picked it from.

“Why are we here? We are not friends! We robbed you quite a while back. Why would you like to meet us again? What is your problem?” Taller’s pitch stayed at ‘answer soon or I will harm you’ baritone.

“I need your help. I need to find out where my wife is, and, what kind of life is she living! Also, I need evidence of her lifestyle. Pictures and videos would be helpful.”

Taller leaned forward to Fatty’s reply, then retracted back to the most comfortable he could be on the couch, crossed his legs, moved his eyes from Fatty to a corner of the room where some random pictures were hung “How much can you pay for this job?”

Fatty looked down and smirked and then looked back at Taller again “I think I paid you plenty already, But I will pay you 3000 dollars more.”

Taller smirked hiding it with his hand and then looked straight into Fatty’s eyes “You called me here. I did not come here for charity. I think you are a good guy and I will help you. But the right price is 10 grand. Not a penny less. Again, no choice here. Agree?”

Fatty shrugged a little and sat down exchanging ‘help me here’ looks with Shorter. Shorter just gave him the ‘I am with him’ look.

He put his head in his hands. It took him a moment to rise back up “Okay, I will pay you 3 grand now and the rest when you provide evidence. Is that alright?”

Taller smirked again, only this time he did not hide it “Great! Hand me the dough in a clean and new envelope and I am off to your investigation. I will call you in a week with the progress.”

Fatty went inside and got the money in a clean and new envelope and handed it over to Taller “Here you go! I trust you for no reason. I hope you are the man you seem to be!”

“I am a professional Business person. I never step back from my word.” Taller blabbered while getting up. Both Taller and Shorter shook hands with Fatty and left.

1 week later

Fatty was sitting on the couch and watching news on the t.v when the phone rang.

He looked at the phone and picked up smiling “Hey man, I was expecting your call anytime now. You are a professional Business person after all. Tell me, what do you have for me?”

“Your wife lives in New York  now. She rents a small place and works as an assistant at a small business office. They make office stuff, like envelopes, boxes and other stuff like that. She seems to be staying alone.” Taller replied calmly.

“Do you have evidence ? Videos? Pictures?”

“Yes, I do. I am leaving New York today and will be at your place on Friday this week. Evening at 5 mostly. Be ready with my payment”

Fatty was frowning for some reason but contained it in his speech “Sure. I want to thank you again for doing this.”

“No Problem, Just keep my money ready”. Taller was quick to hang up

 

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